THOUGHT PROCESS

THE THOUGHT PROCESS OF A MIND INVOLVED IN A DAY TO DAY STRUGGLE WITH LIFE!

Thursday 21 June 2007

Its all over

I'M SOOO HAPPY!!!!!....why I hear you ask?, the light at the end of the tunnel of trash is approaching fast and within three weeks my visual and aural torture will be thankfully ended! The cheap, nasty ,intellectually challenged sorry to say related neighbours ,from The Jeremy Kyle Show ( that's low life on Jerry Springer if your none uk) are finally after FIVE LONG YEARS leaving my visual range and moving away to a land of microwave meals and white Stilleto Shoes!!!. I can't really take it all in, I feel like I've been washed in bleach and all the dirty filth of the last years have been washed off me!!
I bet some of you are thinking that i'm just dramatising and being over sensitive and maybe embellishing the tale, well no!, it was all the loudness of their lives ,the grand gestures of back street life being played out on a main road for all the world to see!!!, listen..one nighttime one of the daughters went screaming in a pair of knickers and nightie up the road drunkenly stumbling around and crying, flab flapping everywhere and she didn't really care who saw her and the next day appeared as if nothing had happened !! that's not right is it!?
Yes I'm glad its finally coming to an end....my only regret is all the raw material that they provided me with, which stimulate me to write blogs and create videos for youtube will not gone! ..never mind with my track record for attracting situations it will only be a matter of time before I will be ranting away again.....Stay tuned! ;-)

Monday 18 June 2007

HOMOPHOBIA

This is a blog post from Eto's myspace profile!

Homophobia

This text is from a deviantArt journal:


"I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most: Love.



Homophobia is sick...

Tuesday 5 June 2007

I ATTRACT ATTENTION



I am a magnet which draws attention whether it be positive or negative!..if I desire to
be un-seen it is I tell you impossible!..the reason why I am going on about it is that today while travelling by arriva bus service,slightly hungover and just a bit tired,I approached my point of destination,we stopped short of the bus stop because of temporary traffic lights which had been erected,so I remained seated till the bus started off again at which point I rang the stop bell!,oh my god!..the driver then angrily said to me why didn't I get off when the bus had stopped at the lights!..I ignore HIM!!!. He then preceded to stop short of the bus stop and say that I will have to get off there! opening the doors to let me off!.. I then walked off the bus,at this point he said under his breath "PRICK!".
I thought that you should never try to get off the bus in any location other than the designated points! and not just anywhere on the road!..feeling the way that I did and to be truthful I didn't really see any reason to be aggressive and impolite, which is why I didn't challenge his behaviour. I can safely say that I am proud of myself for being above such common behaviour and didn't react in a negative way.I AM A MUCH BETTER MAN THAN THAT INDIVIDUAL!
I have forgiven him and his sins and hope he will get PROFESSIONAL HELP!

Saturday 2 June 2007


Here is a blog that jeffree star posted which seems relevant to my life and maybe yours , well you know what people tend to do when they get jealous and envious of others!..yep!. BITCH, BACK STAB AND CAT CALL!!

"it seems like I've been on the search for REAL people to add into my fake LA lifestyle. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't wanna stab someone in the back or talk shit about all my friends because it seemed cool at the time.. You may think you know me from what you've "heard" or seen on the internet, but you can only know so much. Everyone judges and forms an opinion about me, about you, about anyone.. it's natural.. But just know you have NO idea what's underneath it all"..

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